PURE LOVE

my heart throbbed deeply just now when i read abg lokman's blog. i cannot imagine being separated from anyone or even anything in my life that ive grown attached to. so, such a situation as this would break my heart and end the meaning to life. but i guess thats just me. im never that strong enough without mids. nor my family. and friends.

actually, i had known about insyirah since the beginning lagi. its nothing new for me now. but i didnt know it had hurt him to the core. according to the posts, he is lifeless without her and prays endlessly for her return. be strong abang lokman, god has something up his sleeve for us all. everyone has his/hers own test of faith. and believe me when i say, your doing fine. i admire your strength soo much.

in a way, i believe you to a certain extent when u say that u do not blame her for letting u go in such a cruel way. and that u will always love her badly. but she is not to blame. like everyone else in this world, she is merely a portion of her upbringing. they should be the blame instead. and have my word, whenever u need me or mids help to regain insyirah, we will be 200% beside u all the way.

i remember now when i met with mama mids at the hospital when she wanted to give me her blessings. she said that she was tired and so worried about all that has been going on. and she repeatedly wanted to know whether i had made the right decision in wanting to marry mids or not. aunty, i do. without a doubt. i pity her frailling body and her worry wrinkles on her face. according to the stories mids used to tell me about her adventures, i would often picture her in the jungle with special camouflage apparel rummaging through the forest...hehehehe.. but now, she seems so tired and sometimes i just cant help but wanting to hug her worries away.

mids family has in many ways changed me into being a better human being. but among those i can never thank enough for was the realisation i had that mama and me were bestie's. after arwah kak maryam left, i felt a hole in my heart. as mids had a whole hole in his, mine was one ready to be filled. instantly i realised the one person whom would suffer the most without me and whom i have sinned to the most. mama. before, i had hated her, taunted her and never understood the reason for every of my actions being questioned. but then i realised how i had hurt her so much and how if god decided to take either of us away, neither of us can make it.

so, in all, just like abang lokman & insyirah and/or mama & me, its a bond that can never be replaced, seperated or even of non-existence. its pure love.

to those reading, i strongly urge u to read up on insyirah at abang lokman's blog and give him your support. dont forget to appreciate ur love loved ones like there's no tomorrow...

ever grateful...