welcome peeps. sebelum DIA masuk ofis hari ini, saya nak belog sekejap. semalam hati saya diguris luka dan sebak saya terpaksa tahan hingga ke pukul 2 pagi (yakni waktu midi pulang ke rumah). baru hendak mencecah dua bulan saya berada di firma ini (baca: SLaB), sudah terasa seperti hendak cabut lari. ya tuhan, jika kamu mengenali saya, kamu akan tahu bahawa saya bukanlah seorang yang cepat putus asa mahupun mudah mengalah. sebaliknya, saya degil untuk mencuba dan degil untuk kekal. maka, begitulah situasi ini.
semalam baru saya sedar, saya rupanya tidak memahami bahasa pertama saya, iaitu bahasa inggeris. sebaliknya, kerana saya seorang 'melayu' yang berkelulusan 'universiti tempatan' saya mestilah fasih dan petah berbahasa melayu sahaja. begitu rupanya.
saya juga sedar, saya masih bodoh. saya 'incompetent' dan saya juga adalah seorang yang tidak mampu berfikir seperti seorang peguam. yelah. sedar.
saya tidak sangka saya begitu bodoh. mungkin disebabkan sudah terlalu banyak kali sangat digelar bodoh, mungkinkah saya ini benar-benar bodoh? hurm.
apa-apa pun, saya mengambil keputusan tekad pada hari ini. jika tuhan izinkan dan masih sayang pada saya, permohonan yang saya akan hantar akan dijawab. dan jika dijawab dan diterima, maka saya juga akan terima, dengan hati terbuka. tetapi jika tidak, bererti tuhan mahukan saya menjadi seorang yang tabah dan cekal. dia mahukan saya kekal disini. untuk menjadi habuan dan bahan. adoi.
hurm.
ada sesiapa yang mengenali bomoh? yang mampu menembusi si aji ni?
5 RANTS:
kesian u, i hate the narrow minded ppl like that, they are so prejudiced and selalu make incorrect assumption.
i selalu kena, they will say "eh you kan Malay, so ur Malay must be good, help me with this translation"
"eh u Muslim right, so u must know about faraid and takaful, pls do the research"
and i also received comments like, "ur from public uni? wow i thought u studied in UK"
cheh tak tau nak flattered or take offense in the last statement, what? budak local uni takleh speaking ke? stupid
here here sister@brother..
but thats life. what am i to do bout it? if i take a stand, i'll lose, if i dont, i'll sink. either way, theyre going to get the upper hand in the end..
tikah, i hate to speculate...but are u contemplating to resign???
please don't dear..aji will die looking stupid someday..at that point of time, u won't know how to react..whether to laugh or feel sad and at the same time feel pity for him dying that way. *i resolve hatred by imagining that person dead..i know, it's sick but it helps!* :p
BTW, I totally agree with Anon. I got that A LOT from people of other races. Not that I'm being racist but it's not fair for them to assume such things & taking advantage of us at the same time.
My English is not perfect but at least I tried and I believe it's not that bad either!
i actually told him - don't la keep on scolding your LAs. it will drive them away. not like he's listening. :P
just try to learn as much as you can - because even now, i m applying the things he taught me, as opposed to the uncalled for comments and shoutings. only those who were and are in his team will actually know what i m talking about. ANL, YSW, FJL ... CTKY and even JSG.
achey: no worries. actually, im just trying. but gut says that im staying. n trust me, i imagine him DEAD all the time.. hehhee..
just that sometimes, we just feel like pulling the trigger on him, but then still hopping away laughing. :)
petrina: yes. i have learned a lot from him as of these few weeks. and it is making sense when i do work.
thanks ya. but he is who he is, i suppose. hehehe.. and if im staying, im staying for the experience...
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